Now I am your typical, where is my brain, mom. It doesn't get any better, this cyclical feeling--feeling okay and then not. Mixed in between it all is mushy, gooey, goodness. It's snuggles and baby breath but also stinky three year old breath. It's days where we think we're not going to make it, and then we get up and do it all over again. I used to write. I love to write. It keeps me centered. At this point in my life, there are endless rants I could go on. There are stories that I could tell, and then when I get to the moment when I could actually sit down and ruminate over every contemplation, I decide that I would rather spend the moment resting and really not think about anything. It's in those moments that I actually start to grieve over all of the lost memories, all of the moments that I never wrote about. This leads into an overwhelming feeling; I shouldn't write anything because I haven't written about all of these other things I should have wri...
Violet is six days old. Last night was a little harder than the previous. She woke up several times uncomfortable, making dirty diapers. She was on a cycle of breastfeed, lie down, get uncomfortable, go potty, over and over and over. Needless to say, I am quite tired today! Victoria is still showing signs of adjustment, and I know that it will only continue. However we can only hope that although it continues, it happens with less frequency and intensity. She told me to leave her alone today, and she is relentless in her anger towards Nana. Why would she have animosity toward Nana? ... Last night, our lovely friends, Aubrey and Lee, brought us House of Chan for dinner. LOTS OF HOUSE OF CHAN. We had Mongolian BBQ, Sesame Chicken, Schezuan by the Sea, Lo Mein, Egg Rolls, and Crab Rangoon. What an amazing dinner! We are so lucky to have people in our lives who are so caring in our time of need. Our plans for the day are to rest and make our babies happy. Steven will probably take ...